For reals.
A) It's absolutely heartbreaking.
B) It's occasionally frustrating.
C) It's inevitable that you'll get sick yourself. Which makes everything more frustrating and heartbreaking.
Here's to hoping I don't catch pneumonia.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Think Less But See It Grow
Ah, the new year.
These holidays always catch me by surprise, these two days of retrospectives and resolutions are never quite what I expect them to be. I'm not sure if I've always disliked New Years or if these past couple years have altered my opinion of the holiday. Analyzing the past to predict the future just seems so futile right now, at this point in my life when I am changing and growing oh-so-much. And it doesn't take a licensed psychiatrist to see that a lot has happened to me this year. I fell in love, I found the strength to let go of someone I never thought I'd be able to let go of, graduated high school and ran to Chicago to start some sort of grown up life.
Or maybe I just ran away.
But that's not the point ;)
The point is that something changed this New Years. I didn't feel the necessity to over analyze and make predictions, to brood on the year past. I spent this last year with the greatest man in the world, and this New Years I had my first New Years kiss with the man I want to kiss every New Years for the foreseeable future.
I am so happy. SO happy. This past year, whatever the dramatic negatives, was probably the happiest of my life. And I am so excited to see what this new year has in store for me.
Now, there was no analyzing this year but there were some resolutions made. I enjoy resolutions, they make me feel like I have a little control over this growth thing that's going on with me. So. Here are my New Years goals. Broad and attainable.
1) Get Driver's License
Or at least get the permit and start the process of license acquisition. I know in Minneapolis you have to have your permit at least 6 months before you get your license, it may be more here. My true goal is to get my permit and be well on my way to becoming a licensed driver by my next New Years post on this here blog. Which brings me to number
2) Blog Maintenance and Upkeep
Now, my goal is to blog at least once a week and have some sort of structure to those blogs. Eventually I'd like to do what I set out to -- get a camera and start posting about food and fashion, as well as my life. I'd like my posts to have more structure, I'd like to spend more time making sure they make sense. Unlike this one which I plan on posting as soon as I'm done!
3) Manage Money Better / Save More
This is a common one, and basic. I'd like to be able to take a real trip sometime, start a savings account like a real person. Not spend hundreds of unnecessary dollars on clothings and accessories.
4/5) Read and Write More
I've always kept a journal. In the past few years I've become and increasingly shazzy journalist... journaler? Anyway, I'd like to procure a new journal and write in it at least as much as I blog. If I don't I'll probably start spilling things I don't want on the internet. I probably already have. And the other is pretty common. Read more. I love books and I've always loved books. I'm reading two right now but my problem is pace. I read so slowly that by the time I'm halfway through a book another comes along that I want to read more and I don't end up finishing the first book. So. Stick to my literature commitments, and journal more consistently.
Attainable, no? I think I'll do good. But today is the last day of my vacation before going back to work, today is still a New Years holiday. I start tomorrow.
Hope everyone out there had as marvelous a New Years as I did!!!
Now for my final day of lazing about and vegging on the couch.
These holidays always catch me by surprise, these two days of retrospectives and resolutions are never quite what I expect them to be. I'm not sure if I've always disliked New Years or if these past couple years have altered my opinion of the holiday. Analyzing the past to predict the future just seems so futile right now, at this point in my life when I am changing and growing oh-so-much. And it doesn't take a licensed psychiatrist to see that a lot has happened to me this year. I fell in love, I found the strength to let go of someone I never thought I'd be able to let go of, graduated high school and ran to Chicago to start some sort of grown up life.
Or maybe I just ran away.
But that's not the point ;)
The point is that something changed this New Years. I didn't feel the necessity to over analyze and make predictions, to brood on the year past. I spent this last year with the greatest man in the world, and this New Years I had my first New Years kiss with the man I want to kiss every New Years for the foreseeable future.
I am so happy. SO happy. This past year, whatever the dramatic negatives, was probably the happiest of my life. And I am so excited to see what this new year has in store for me.
Now, there was no analyzing this year but there were some resolutions made. I enjoy resolutions, they make me feel like I have a little control over this growth thing that's going on with me. So. Here are my New Years goals. Broad and attainable.
1) Get Driver's License
Or at least get the permit and start the process of license acquisition. I know in Minneapolis you have to have your permit at least 6 months before you get your license, it may be more here. My true goal is to get my permit and be well on my way to becoming a licensed driver by my next New Years post on this here blog. Which brings me to number
2) Blog Maintenance and Upkeep
Now, my goal is to blog at least once a week and have some sort of structure to those blogs. Eventually I'd like to do what I set out to -- get a camera and start posting about food and fashion, as well as my life. I'd like my posts to have more structure, I'd like to spend more time making sure they make sense. Unlike this one which I plan on posting as soon as I'm done!
3) Manage Money Better / Save More
This is a common one, and basic. I'd like to be able to take a real trip sometime, start a savings account like a real person. Not spend hundreds of unnecessary dollars on clothings and accessories.
4/5) Read and Write More
I've always kept a journal. In the past few years I've become and increasingly shazzy journalist... journaler? Anyway, I'd like to procure a new journal and write in it at least as much as I blog. If I don't I'll probably start spilling things I don't want on the internet. I probably already have. And the other is pretty common. Read more. I love books and I've always loved books. I'm reading two right now but my problem is pace. I read so slowly that by the time I'm halfway through a book another comes along that I want to read more and I don't end up finishing the first book. So. Stick to my literature commitments, and journal more consistently.
Attainable, no? I think I'll do good. But today is the last day of my vacation before going back to work, today is still a New Years holiday. I start tomorrow.
Hope everyone out there had as marvelous a New Years as I did!!!
Now for my final day of lazing about and vegging on the couch.
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